Security at the cost of few more lives......

Yesterday in the morning when i read news of one more murder of 51 year old woman, wife of one of the prominent builder , i felt sad ... this is the last way anyone would want to lose one's loved-one...sighs... the irony is such a big builder and lives in middle class society with no watchman forget CCTV cam, really strange miser character (or his society didn't agree to have one )....

we cant blame him entirely because mumbai is the place where the most powerful man also might feel frustrated in housing societies...lol... the paradox is Richie rich also cant afford a bungalow here with property prices trying to kiss the sky and housing societies is nothing but a Ranch keeping all class of cattle under one organization giving everyone equal right, be it powerful horse , be it ugly lazy pig, be it hardworking donkey or be it messy rat....lol...whatever you may be in your personal life , whatever position you may have or whosoever are you in the world, but democracy gives equal right to everyone, and you remain just a member , who can never get things done without the consent of Rats, Asses, and few pigs even if it is benefiting to all, that's co-operative society indulging in uncooperative jobs....my contention is why mumbaikars are so pathetically misers ??? they boast of their house price touching to crore or many lakhs but collectively as a society they cant even afford a watchman  ?? most of the society members buy Cars (just for show off or occupying free parking space in the compound or for weekend mall shopping) or indulge in vanity but collectively for society cant afford good CCTV cam for their own security ....sighs....

I also feel sad for the so called corp-orators who are given funds for  the welfare of their area, but never use it effectively ...at the time of election they will knock all the doors begging donations for the party , wish they could do the same for installing CCTV cam in their respective areas and bring down crime rate also....sighs.... wish we had Britishers ruling us , as honestly i don't have much faith in our Indian politicians , like Kalmadi, krupa shankar singh, bangaru laxman or chidambaram.... Entire London is under CCTV surveillance which is remarkable for any city to have such close watch on public at large...anyway, it wont have till few more hundreds/thousands are lost , just keep wondering whose number is next...   

demise of humanity or barbie girl ???...

yesterday while browsing t.v channels came across some horrific news of 3 months old girl being bitten and beaten by her own father as he wanted a son , the reporting itself was so horrific that i had no other option than switching some-other channel.... strange, such news itself is so painful wonder how it would have been for infant to go through such ordeal , and what about a mother , who carried a baby irrespective of her gender discrimination... what a pitiful mother who couldn't recognize the devil father in his husband , i always thought a child to be the strongest bond between man and woman, sad , in this case it was more of a liability bond....

once i went to a swimming pool, and there i saw 2-3 year old girl , rolly polly girl with loud voice , splashing water everywhere , screaming on top of her voice daddy , daddy , making everyone around amused with her antics.....even if katrina kaif in swim suit would have entered that place would have not got any attention how much that doll would steal from everyone around....the scene was so lovely , the doll was constantly calling her father to be with her in children's pool, refraining her father to swim without her...her constant bombarding of questions and that childish talk was making me smile all the time , and the bond between the father and daughter was inexpressive in words ...wish this scene was seen by that monster dad who killed his own daughter, perhaps he could have been more sensitive towards her....

why baby girl is so much unwanted , difficult to understand for me , in-spite having stringent laws favoring women , we are helpless ?? ....in last 20 years Indians have killed 10 million baby girls, is really a matter of shame for me , for every Indian.... i remember having seen child beggars in one of the movies of 1950's , even in 2012 when i reach to some signal i find them in abundance begging ...what i am trying to say is in-spite begging being offence or making children beg is offence, it is happening and shall ever flourish in my Great country ... same-way , girl child is being killed and shall be killed by Indians for years to come ...HUM NAHI SUDHRENGE (lets accept we will not improve)..... we keep boasting of our values and our culture , but  western world is far better than us and not being hypocrite at least... in human sex ratio even some African countries are better than India, and interesting fact is where women to men ratio is higher , such countries are flourishing in every way (e.g most of Europe and US , Canada , Australia)....

child is child , it should be treated as a child without being discriminated based on it's sex... i only wish, that the man who killed his own daughter as he wanted baby boy , his sex should be changed , he should be made woman with several operations on his body and make him go through hell and should be stoned to death in public....


the time has come for government to step in and promote girl child , give status of special citizen who has only one child and that too girl....hope to be the special citizen someday before being senior citizen........lol...

miss you darling..................

love in moments or love as a journey ??

Ghar is one of the most romantic and sensitive movie of indian Cinema , which exhibits the love in true sense or every sense.... the emotions of newly married woman played by rekha and the horrific trauma she goes through is marvelously portrayed on screen, no wonder Vidya Balan is compared to her ......... i really wonder how these people could act so well and take you to some different world, making you skip your heartbeat or even make your tears roll over........i personally just hate to see emotional movies as it gives lot of pain later , as i always feel who wants to spend money to cry ??....but at times such movies just gives you much needed emotional boost , and you start comparing your life with the same , you start hunting yourself or people who matters most to you in those characters, or those faltoo characters in the movie you relate to someone real nasty in your life ... 

its indeed a great feeling of being loved ......, being loved irrespective of how you are, what you say , how you behave, there's someone always there to love you , who would never be critical or judgmental and always be there......, your small small details are very well taken seriously, your antics are also taken lovingly....you may be called psycho but would be loved as madly as psycho would harm you,  or pamper like baby and perhaps you never grow up in that particular lap and remain baby forever ....what you like is more important to that person rather than his/her own taste , the feeling of giving up for him/her, the feeling of losing to someone whom you would love to see winning against you , you don't mind losing million dollars to the smile on his/her face ,come what may you know in any given situation good or bad that person will be there with your one call..it is indeed crazy feeling to be loved like mad and such madness is cherished all your life till you die ....being loved is more intoxicating than any emotions in the world, the mad feeling of being loved transcends all other feelings and make you reach on the top of someone special's heart.....the unconditional affections with your soul mate is the only journey worth going for in life, rest all is bogus, love should be a continuous journey and not to be lived in moments ...

was just searching for the definition of love, and got it , which says , Love is a emotion of strong affection and personal attachment. Love is also a virtue representing all of human kindness, compassion, and affection; and "the unselfish loyal and benevolent concern for the good of another". Love may also be described as actions towards others or oneself based on compassion, or as actions towards others based on affection.

hope every living being in this world is blessed with this emotion and live happily everafter....

mourning .................13th Dec.................

a morning , very normal morning for almost everyone except me, calmness all around and uneasiness deep within; when i got up , i never felt it will be the worst morning of my life .... with lots of stress , stress of fighting with super power, hope of miracle happening to me, got up and after brushing teeth, went to hospital as usual how i have been going to same horrible place for last one week.....unaware of being my last visit this time to the same place, just went to talk to the so called noble professional , whom idiots call doctor and i call whore wrapped in white apron.... perhaps not all are bad , its fallacious to generalize all, as all cant be Mahatma Ghandhi in-spite being NETA (politician) , all cant be mother teresa in-spite running NGO......sighs.....

a usual morning , sitting in the waiting area of the hospital (big business house), thinking and thinking , yesterday night had discussions with relatives about shifting to bigger hospital , hire an ambulance and just give it a try...lots of thoughts playing around but practically feeling helpless, feckless and , blank .... and that white apron warped devil comes and call you inside , keeping his hand on my shoulder , i am sorry , she is no more , a mild electric current running through your spine making you numb .....you see a dead body tied both hands tight on sides of bed , neck punctured , nose and mouth covered with oxygen , and for a week without water in her throat, how one can feel ?...you are left with strange numbness, dealing with horrible feelings, mixed emotions of sadness and anger,  loosing the god , who gave me birth, who brought me in this world and i couldn't save her to be in this world.... all your death defying acts go in vain, perhaps god is showing me his power and laughing over me , and in that moment of mental agonizing, you just want to fight with god and crush his head under your shoes and punish him to make me see such day.......  an end of a golden era of my life , mourning day of my life, atrocious day of my life, 13th december ...... 

perhaps death is the most beautiful truth of life , we live as if we are never going to die, nor we imagine anybody close to us will die..... one must discuss the death with loved-ones when they are mature enough to understand; as its another way of making them tough for the worst.... 

my mother is still alive within me and giving me her blessings , she always got worried thinking what will happen to my utkarsh....smiles..... and she had the answer that she will be an angel , who would keep giving me blessings till i die....a star was added in the sky 8 years back.....miss you mummy....RIP....

Resilience...............

when you are upset and feeling lonely and you are about to make Guinness world records of being awake and not sleeping then its surely  difficult time.......

in today's time of sheer pressure to perform , live up to our own expectation and lots of stress (be it emotional, financial or work related), We need to maintain some semblance of balance and some sense that we are steering the ship of our life in the ocean of moments which is full of greed, lies , opportunities and threats all around......in such times , when life throws curve balls , its only friends offer softer landing where you can be safe and sure....

friends o friends... they uplift , they console , they pull your legs, they support in many ways ....with lightening speed of technology at your finger tips , world in your palms and pockets you still miss real friends though (how i am missing today)..... you go online on yahoo or facebook or many such other social sites , you are flooded with friends , but at times real friend is surely missing where you can lean on actually.....

the best time you have had starts unfolding in your mind and makes it even worse to accept that where are those people and why are they not around anymore , questions creates more doubts of our own sanity or about their worthiness, and irrespective of the answer you are loser anyway  ....sighs.....

the state of isolation is very hazardous as long as its giving you feeling of being lonely , in spite being surrounded by people you find yourself aloof is really worrisome .....perhaps people around you may be more selfish and self centered , whom you consider your bestest friend may turn out to be the worst living being who creates sense of discontent  within you by being hyper critical and judgmental....  Resilience is what we need to cultivate , with better things around......... 

Steve Jobs...Wonder in apple land....

for centuries one man will be remembered as father of tablets and innovative communications ....i very much remember the uproar and mad curiosity among everyone when iPhone was launched , it was as good as magic for millions who never thought how entire communication may change forever.....

i have always searched on Steve jobs as i have had habit of finding more information on rags to riches personalities ......perhaps such stories work as motivator for any start up entrepreneur and i was not exception to it...

just imagine how would you feel when you create a company which starts reaping huge profits and you only are sacked out of the company ???? strange , isn't it ? No, this is what happened with Steve....and as they say , Gold will remain Gold even if you put it anywhere ; Steve proved the saying.... he left apple and went on to make another company which eventually apple bought it later and he got back to the seat which he created for himself....

for me Steve Jobs shall remain as an Enterprising innovator , who could think out of the box, and nothing could stop him from being the numero uno, and nothing deter his ambitions irrespective of his health or Samsung/others copying all his products....

starting from a garage to make billion dollar company is surely unforgettable journey and the most important is commanding respect of all...

Rest in Peace, Steve.....

noble professions........

what is noble profession ??? and who has decided it ??? who has classified it as a noble profession ?

recently i met a fool who told me i like noble professions......quite amusing ......i pitty my friend who finds noble professions interesting ...

Doctors, are living god and termed as engaged in noble profession but i do not agree.... its just an official licence to rob people.....when you visit any hospital, you are asked whether you have mediclaim or not , and for both things they have different price list.... i have had worst experience of my mother's death dealing with this so called noble bastards.....

Teaching is also one of the noble profession, but in our country a person who can not do anything turns up a teacher.....thank god , govt. is coming out with mandatory Teacher's aptitude test.....i remember having met with one noble teacher (witch) in 5 th grade.... i had not done the homework and i was made to stand out of the class touching my toes and on my back duster was kept.....can never forget the trauma i had gone through then, and whenever i see someone calling teachers noble i feel yukkksss.......we must have a proper system to make good teachers, as in their hands our future lies.......i beg to disagree on them too , they are not as noble as politicians.....smiles....

politicians are surprisingly out of the noble profession criteria, smiles, even-though they are serving people without charging anything unlike teachers and doctors......same goes for NGO...

any job done without any expectation and with good intention is noble, irrespective of any profession....sad.......professions can never be noble , its the people who can be noble towards profession.....